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# Oceans
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- Published: 2015-04-19T00:44:36.000Z
- Updated: 2015-04-19T00:44:36.000Z
- Author: Meri McGuire McConn
- Tags: #Poetry, Oceans of Mine, #Love and Relationships

These emotions, they ride me  
ceaselessly  
  
My heart craving to be  
elsewhere  
  
My mind craving to be  
elsewhere  
  
My eyes craving to see  
elsewhen  
  
Where they beheld  
les yeux bleu du mon amour  
*et nous lèvres embrassé tendres* 
*avec bisous tres sucré...*  
  
When saline tears came as easily as the ocean  
and just as preciously  
before needing to surf these waves  
being pummeled with a smattered education  
and a learning that comes unquickly  
  
Am I not wise enough?   
Am I too old for love?  
  
Too bent in my ways  
Too smart for my own good?  
  
Have I lost the will to play?  
The questioning comes as fiercely  
  
As steadily as he ever swore I caused him to do  
I said I could handle it better than he…  
  
And still, I suffer  
mercilessly  
helplessly  
with only our memories to comfort me  
  
That he wished to be   
free of this miserable pain  
  
That he wished to be   
untortured  
  
That he wished to escape   
to worlds known-but-unfamiliar  
  
In the comfort of friends   
incomplete  
  
That I want to die so   
thoroughly a death to all I know  
to all I am  
to all I’ve ever learned…  
  
Am I so different from he?  
  
Please,  
meet me in a place where we promised to meet  
  
In a time that is  
  
Now  
Yesterday  
Far-away  
  
In Neverland  
In Wonderland  
In our land  
  
Where healing never happens  
because pain never was  
  
Where the ocean is for beauty  
  
Bubbling  
kissing our toes  
our ankles  
our knees  
  
Where water becomes us  
and we become the sea